Struggling.

I went into work today.

I didn’t want to when I woke up, but I did.

Felt ok on the drive in, me and my fiance were singing and dancing in the car.

Then I arrive and the weight of it hits me.

But I’ve got on with it.

Until about an hour ago, it comes in waves, mood swings, changes. I feel really low right now.

I’ve got less than an hour to go but it feels like forever.

I’ve been allowed to go out for a break to clear my head, so that’s where I am now, stood in the smoking shelter, vaping, and tapping away on my phone.

Sharing how I feel with people that I hope can understand.

Struggling.