Why does good news feel like bad news?

We have just found out that my fiance’s cousin is pregnant.

That is great news, really it is, I am so happy for them.

Then my emotions kick in.

All I want is a baby, I have wanted one for as long as I remember, I want my own little family.

So we hear the news and my initial reaction is happiness, then a few seconds later I feel sick, I want to cry, I am so incredibly jealous of what they are about to experience, the possibilities that are so close for them now.

Why do I feel this way?

Why can’t I just be happy for them?

I wish I could but I can’t fight down the feelings that I am having.

There is tightness in my chest, my heart is beating fast and I feel sick and tearful.

I wish I didn’t have to feel like this.

I just want to be happy for them.

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Why does good news feel like bad news?

11 thoughts on “Why does good news feel like bad news?

  1. I agree with Buffy. These feelings are natural or I hope they are, because I get them too. I find it hard to express enjoyment for other people sometimes. It is so nice to hear you so honest about your feelings.

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      1. Just feeling dull and numb this morning. Think I over did the emotions last night and now I’ve got nothing. It’s been a while since I’ve felt like this. Guess its all part of recovery though, there will be down days and times where I lose control.
        Thanks for thinking of me and checking in 🙂

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      2. Nothing seems as certain as a bad day. But now you can start to look forward to the good days. You are welcome. I know you will get past this, but until then, look after yourself.

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  2. I think we often feel like it should be “either/or”, and that the happiness and sadness can’t co-exist… but in actual fact it’s fine to be happy for others while acknowledging our own sense of loss/emptiness. Some people push down their negative feelings, which is the unhealthy thing.

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