I’ve recently started exercising again. Just little bits, one netball session a week and a few classes at the gym.
I used to exercise to the extreme, running up to 20 miles at a time, and I did it because I was striving for the perfect body.
At this point I had already halved my body weight but I still wasn’t happy, I kept pushing myself further and further on a quest for some form of perfection that I couldn’t define. I always wanted more from myself and all I had to give wasn’t enough.
After falling ill and quitting exercise because, to be perfectly honest, I didn’t have the motivation to get out of bed let alone get sweaty, I have been through a lot of therapy and tried to deal with my issues and conquer my demons that tell me that enough is never good enough.
I feel like I am in a much better place now and I am wanting to exercise for the right reasons.
I want to be healthy, not skinny.
I want to work to increase my stamina and see my fitness levels rise.
The size of my clothes and the number on the scales is irrelevant, what matters is how I feel, not how I look.
Learn to love yourself as you are, no matter how you feel I promise you are worthy and you are more than good enough.